how did we end up here
One can say that similar to how the sun rises, it must set. This is true for any system that exists no matter the system. One day the earth will spin one last time, you will have your last breath one day, etc.
The question that lies before me is not a matter of if the state will die but when.
Let’s rewind five ish years. A lot has happened since. I’d just joined and life was pretty good. Innovative just got instated, and we were pretty smooth sailing. But those of us who have stuck around since then, will recall how the environment just felt… different. Maybe its a case of me watching time fly by without actually acknowledging what is happening, but the game just truly doesn’t quite feel the same as it once had.
It just feels like toxicity went sky fucking high since, and the game doesn’t have the small community feel. Quality in departments is quickly dropping as many^(exceptions should be clear) switch over from quantity to quality. People who have no business being in leadership positions whether elected or given to them begin to not only have the department crest the hell but slam on the fucking gas on the way down. All the people I mention all have at least one thing in common. They’ve either grown up and left because there was no time to play this game, or they have left because of the toxicity handed to them on a shit-colored platter. Fortunately, I am feeling the way I am because I am finding less and less time to play this time-waster of a game, and not because anyone, in particular, was toxic.
If you were toxic to me in the past and are actually cool with me know, just know I’ve either forgotten or written it off as people not being emotionally developed. I don’t think I truly hate anyone in this state anymore and don’t have any gripes with anyone. If anyone feels different please my DMs are open, and as long as hurricane Ian is bearing down there’s not a lot for me to do outside my house so I will probably be at my desk.
If you want to truly feel what I have felt these last couple of days, punch in 2018 or hell, 2019 into the search bar and look at all the white names, and honestly just look at the quality of the converstaion. See who you remember once being an active member in FS, hell even in general, and compare it to now. Different times, huh?
People move on. That doesn’t mean the state has died, but it certainly starts to feel like death of a thousand cuts when everyone you once knew is leaving, and each of them taking a sliver of history with them. It feels like the toxic melting pot of your typical suspects is left over, while anyone worthwhile having around is gone. I distinctly remember in 2019 when I was a freshmen in HS (feels like ages ago). I load up a game of FS as a criminal like typical. In any given server I’d see Canine, Annoyingk1ds, Bjohn, Hobo, Echo21Alpha, BeastDaBest, Jeffrevin, ryananderson, exoticshepherd, elite_creations, and hell even sometimes saw Buford in-game way back when. I feel like the game is a shell of what it once was, a roleplay game.
Not sure what it is if I’m being truthful. Maybe I’ve grown up and my perspective of what the game is and what it used to be has changed, and it’s core values haven’t. But more likely, I think that once everyone you once knew has moved on, you fall up next on the chopping block. I’m well aware I have an er… shaky history at best, but man I still made some damn good friends that I intend on keeping in contact with in the future. (you know who you are).
I don’t entirely know what the point of this post was, maybe just to rant? But I was hoping to at least bring my thoughts to the table and see what everyone else had to say to see if I was insane or if I was not the only one.
